30 days and anxiously waiting

Man, today begins the 30 day mark, only 1 month left! I have sold most of my belongings and anxiously hoping someone will finally rent out my dang condo so I can be stress free.  I am really losing hope however with all of the jobs that I have applied to overseas, where nobody has given me even an email letting me know that I am not the right fit.  I guess this is the grim reality of what it will be like to job hunt out there.

The house is so empty.  Every room is pretty much bare minus my room and the downstairs TV room.  Mixed emotions having to pack up your bags and go through all of your belongings and think of all the memories that you have had.  Sigh.

Everyone is also asking me if I will be having a going away party. It just seems like it would be so much work, not to mention saying goodbye over and over to people.. blah. Sounds tiring.  What if I end up coming back in a few months? How embarrassing would that be? I shall see what's going to happen.

Next target date- 3.15 to move out and to hire people clean and wash the carpet.  Home stretch here. I am so anxious and ready to go, but on the other hand, I am not wanting to leave either. Hopefully my feelings will sort out soon.

First Steps

Well ever since I decided to take the plunge and purchase my air ticket, life has been passing by pretty quickly.  Trying to sell your belongings and trying to make sure everything will go smoothly as planned can be quite stressful.  I just can't believe what turned into a thought in my head and a dream is finally coming true.  Will I be able to hack it out there? Will I have the energy and the patience to start all over in a different city and a different country? I'm supposed to have a Skype conference later tonight to discuss some logistics with a job offer, but should I accept and just settle?  Ugh... uncertainty is just driving me insane these days.  Maybe it's because I am getting old, but man I really do enjoy stability.

Deep breaths- everything will be ok. Take one step at a time.  Can't wait for the journey to start.